A day in my life- haven't done this in a while!!

So, I haven't written about my day in a long time. But, I plan to do this entry a little differetly. I am going to talk about a bunch of random things, situations, and crises as of late. lol!

Okay so some interesting websites!! www.mlia.com This site is kind of like one of my more interestingly favorite sites called FML.com. My life is average is an interesting site and I just laughed. If you are ever feeling down though, I'd suggest the fml.com because there are some crazy stories on that particular site.

So, I recently moved back home for a few months out of necessity. I am hoping I can be back out on my own here soon and I plan to move back to Everett too because I have become so fond of that city. I am and always have been a city girl.. So, living in the country is just not okay with me unless it is temporary. This is such a major adjustment to have to go from being by myself to living with family again. It is frustrating and sometimes feels like I am losing my mind. Of course I will live though!!

I have come to the conclusion, and this is a simple one I should have known by now, that I can't make someone love me. I can't make some stay with me or care about me and want to spend their life with me. It's his loss not mine if he can't handle the love and companionship of an awesome woman!! I pride myself on being a compassionately, full of love, take charge, type of person. I am glad that I have had the experiences I have had. As hard as they have been on me emotionally, I have learned so much from them at the same time.

I don't like to talk about all my medical problems because people generally start to think that I am complaining which is not always the case. I suffer from Bipolar Disorder AKA Manic Depressive. I also suffer from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am not ashamed over things I can't change and I want to speak out against the need for others to make people with mental illness feel that they are freaks or that they are weak because of something that is out of their control. Right now I don't have my medication which I desperately need in order to function. I wouldn't wish not having meds on anyone! It's so hard to cope and to get through the day when you are having flashbacks and constant panic attacks. No fun!

I am strong! I can deal with a lot and I have in my lifetime. For those of you that know me more personally, you know what I am referring to. It's hard but I am strong and will continue to get through it by the grace of God and by sheer will!

I just want people to be aware that just because you suffer from a disorder, it doesn't make you less of a person. It simply means that you have more to deal with! It's my humble prayer that other people start to empathize and be more compassionate and Christlike.

Remember to love one another as He has loved you! This is an important concept to learn. Hope everyone recognizes their blessings along with their trials!!

Happy WEEKEND all!












~Michelle~

Hey Now!

Life... Sweet life. So, I just have to say that I am currently overwhelmed with happiness of how school is going and how many friends that I have that are there for me. One of my closest guy friends has offered to do something so selfless for me. As many of you know I was told that I cannot have children if I start later than thirty. That it would be almost impossible and fertility drugs may help but it is still about a sixty percent chance. Well, this awesome friend of mine has offered to be a sperm donor for me if I am not married in the next couple years. I want to have my degree first and be more financially stable. But, I am really thinking of taking him up on the offer. He is financially stable and would make an excellent father. He is smart, loving and just an all around great person.

Hey now! I know what some of you are thinking. You are thinking this is a bad idea and that the church won't condone this. But, think of it from my perspective. I am alone, and I am approaching thirty really quickly and I want a baby really badly. Yes, I want a husband. Yes, I want to be married in the temple and have children that are raised in the church. I just can't help but think that maybe it isn't in the cards for me.

I know I would be an excellent Mother. Better than most Mothers! Let me know what you all think as I am sure it is different than what I think!

Well, I am only a day late!

Ok, so I was supposed to do this yesterday and I, like Cherish, forgot to do so. But, it is all good, I am only a day late. So, what did I do today? Well, I woke up approximately 9:20am, went down stairs and moved my car-time parking sucks! Then, I came back upstairs and went to bed for another hour. I woke up and got dressed, fixed my annoying hair;I need to dye it again, then grabbed my lunch and was out the door to work. I got to work and as usual put my make up on in the car. Then, headed into work to hang out in the break room until work started. Then, the dreaded phones, I called approximately 1500 people within my 8 hr shift. Not the way I care to spend my time when I am being cussed out but ok. So, as I am leaving work tonight, I realize that I am really low on gas and my friend/co-worker, still needs me to take her home. So, I am driving her home and because I am tired, when I am turning a corner, I accidentally bumped the curb. Then, I see the red lights and realize that a cop has pulled me over. NOT HAPPY. So, his first question- Have you been drinking? Me : No officer, I just got off work. Him: Can I see your license, registration and proof of insurance? Me: Here you are officer. He then hands me my info back and takes my license with him to radio in my info. Approximately two minutes later he comes back and gives me my license and then sees that I have my old CA license in my wallet. Then, he proceeds to ask me if my CA license is suspended. This nearly sends me into a rage. No, officer it is just expired. He states ok Michelle make sure you drive safe, I am giving you a warning.

WOW is all I can say to that. I get home, watch my DVR shows, took one look at my piling up homework and completely said, I don't think so. Not right now. It is due on Thursday. My cat kept whining at me so I had to get her some water and food. Now, I am sitting here and writing all this out.

So, if you wanted to know a day in my life, this one was not too eventful, until after work. But, I promise... I am pretty busy and on the go NON-STOP these days.

Michelle