I won't mention where I found this information. OK, let me start from the beginning but first I want to get it out there at some point in everyone's life, they will question what they believe and wonder where the truth is.
In my twenty seven years I have not ever felt so lost as I have been for the last year or so. I am trying not to cry while I write this because the struggle is real, it is hard, true, raw and on going. Some may think that someone such as I, young age of twenty-seven,no comments John;0)... could have survived what I have, dealt with some of the things I have had to endure. I am not saying that there aren't people out there that have survived much more than I. I know that isn't true.
If my readers haven't figured out yet, life is NOT fair: not everyone gets what they want, when they want.
So, through my struggles I stumbled on a Anti-Mormon website, I found this site off of one of the sites I frequent. I, at first, thought to myself... What is this about Mormon facts??? Once I realized it was Anti-Mormon and was dissecting every thing written in the church, I became so upset that I had to write Dad. It is so sad to say that I am in a place where I am questioning and where I don't know nearly enough about my religion/belief system as I should.
So, when I wrote my Dad through email because it was late and I couldn't call him; I asked him, Dad, how do I know what is real? How do I know that what I was taught is the absolute in a world that is so relative? I hope he doesn't mind that I post his response???
This is my wonderful Father's response:
"You must ask yourself a question. "If a organization spends so much effort to disprove another faith what is it that they "do" teach and believe?"
Can you base your beliefs on the doubts and scrutiny of others? Wonder how many of this organization are members who did not live the teachings so it was easier to find fault in the belief and faith of the Church than try harder to live it.
I looked at some of the links and found, as usual, things out of context. You can never win a debate "out of context".
There are all kinds of things I do not understand, including the universe, but I do not have time to doubt it exists. It is the same mind set that claims the Holocaust never happened. What we do not believe or understand does not create truth.
Love Dad"(email from Randy Durham, my Father, 6/26/08).
Epiphany! Why is it that I am so quick to question? Why is it that I cannot have the faith I need?
Dad is so awesome because he always gives me perspective!
So, I dedicate this post to my Father's honor because he is always there to give guidance in an unreliable world. He is there to help me through my struggles and has unconditional love for his children, like our Heavenly Father does. I tell him that I love him all the time. But, I wonder if he knows how much he means to me and how much I admire and aspire to be like him.
Peace,
Michelle
2 comments:
well michelle religon is never easy... I still to this day have questions and things that I have a hard time understanding or even agreeing with but in the end it always comes down to the fact that I love Chris,Ashlyn, and Collin and I will strive to be with them through the eternities... this being said my Heavenly father knows me which means he knows the true intentions of my heart and I know that I give it my best and some days are better then others but I strive to be better and love my family and I know that my heavenly father will make things right in the end...! I have always struggled with religon... I met your brother in the nick of time, without him I would not be active.. not because I do not believe in my religon but because people are very judgemental and they tend to live inside a little box where they pretend the outside world doesn't exsist and that is not reality... everyone comes to the knowledge of why the church makes sense and is the truth for them and we should judge one another.. but we don't live the religon for other people we live it for ourselves and that is a struggle I deal with daily! The ward I am in now is the best that I have ever been in and I am so glad because I really needed to know that not everyone in this religon was so judgemental. I hope that you find what your are looking for. Love April
Everyone has those thoughts at one time or another. These past couple of months I have had my doubts and have even been angry with the Lord at times. Through it all though there has been enough faith to see me through and I consider myself lucky in that way. I have had people around who have loved me and my family and have blessed my life in ways they will never know.
My prayers have not always been answered in the ways I have wanted but looking back in life I see that they were answered in a way that blessed me more that I could have imagined.
I know things have been harder for you than they have been for me.. and I am in awe of your strength and endurance.
Just remember through it all that there are so many people who love you including our Father in Heaven and if you stay true to Him you will be blessed. (not always in the way we want.. but blessed none-the-less)
I love you girlie...
Tennille
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