After tribulations, comes blessings..

I have to believe this because things are so hard right now. Some because of my own doing. I am human and I make mistakes just like anyone else. I recently decided to follow the word of wisdom once and for all. I decided to quit smoking once and for all! I am going to actually get a medication called Chantix to stop. It has been five years that I have smoked on and off. My life has had its tragedies and I don't want to only be noticed for those tragedies. I want to rise above the trials and to live my life the way I should. I have been sick a lot lately, with Bronchitis and chest colds,fevers, the flu.. Whatever you want to call it, I have had it!

Things with school and work are hectic and I really want some inspiration here from other people or from Heavenly Father to see if continuing my education after my Bachelor's is something I should do. In my P. Blessing it says that I will attain many degrees. So, this must be the first of many.. This gives me faith and hope to keep going. I am just so tired and frustrated right now. Work is another story, I can't live off of what I make and the stress of paying late fees on rent and thinking I will get kicked out has my stomach in knots. But, I have to believe that after tribulations, comes the blessings. As Tennille said in her talk about happiness, "Don't wait to go back to school, or to finish school, to get married, to have children, to be happy." This is so true, I should not wait for these things to be happy, but, I should strive to be happy with life as it is now. To cherish the lessons learned from adversity and to continue to press on. I am only me, I am the only one that can change me or become happy in the present.

I know that I am truly blessed even with all the trials. Things are tough, hard, tiring and down right annoying at times. But, my Heavenly Father loves me and is aware of what I am in need of. "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want." One of my favorite scriptures. As well as Proverbs 3:5-6 which states "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not into thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths."

I so just answered my own question about school. Wow!!


My love to all and thanks for continuing to read!