There is nothing I can do to change it! It is at times like these that I really rely on the Lord for his guidance because I feel completely alone in my struggles. People in my life are making it harder for me to cope. Because I don't have my medication that is another story all together. I feel completely out of control as if one more snide remark with cause me to lose it completely. I don't understand people that feel the need to point out other people's weaknesses as if to throw it in their face! "Judge not for ye shall be judged"... It seems to me that I believe this even more today then I have ever in the past. Love thy enemies. I do love mine! Even though they willfully despise me and go against me in every manner. I feel as if I am constantly forgiving and yet not being forgiven at the same time. It's a hard pill to swallow and I feel completely devastated.
On a lighter note, I have many friends and family that are my rock, that are constantly there for me and ask for anything in return. It is people like this that really make me grateful and appreciate everything that I have in this life. I know that God closes doors but opens windows. I just hope that he will be opening some more for me soon! It feels like I am drowning in a sea of abyss I call my problems and that there is no end in sight.
Grateful for the blessings in my life. Namely friends that know I am without and are coming to me tomorrow to bring me food or money for food. This surprises me everyday the willingness to support fellow man in their efforts to survive. I am actually tearing up as I write this today because I feel utterly blessed by my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. He knows what we stand in need of and puts people in our lives to help us through our struggles. He does this so long as we trust in Him.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (My favorite scripture mastery) states "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart. Lean not into thy own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths."
How true is that people? How true is it that if we put all our trust in to our Lord that he will watch over us in our times of need?!? I may not know much, but, I do know this to be true!
I hope everyone can and will be as grateful as I am and feel in their daily lives with their many blessings..
Thanks for reading!
~Michelle~
2 comments:
You are one FABULOUS lady Miss Michelle! The only one who's opinion of you matters is that of our Heavenly Father and yours. No one else. Out with the negative energy and only in with the positive! You're an inspiration for all of us enduring trials. You are loved by more people than you realize. Keep your chin up and this beacon of hope alive! You'll be reaching greater heights by the minute! Love you lots Michelle!
Thanks Meredith!! You rock!
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