I have been pondering this question for many years. I can't seem to get a definitely answer. I look at my parents and their marriage and I see hope. They have been married for almost 31 years. I don't understand how a couple could still love each other after that long but I am grateful that they do. It gives me hope that one day, if I am lucky and God willing, that I will walk down the aisle and be with the man of my dreams. He is a great man and I care about him so much... He is a good father, friend, person and he cares about everyone. I aspire to be so great!
We had a fight today and it was over something stupid. A miscommunication really!! But, him not talking to me all night, not being close to him or feeling his touch on my hand... Really made me start to think about my life and how much I need him in it. It is crazy to think that I can need someone so bad. That I could want to have a companion so much.. I have always relied on myself and maybe that has gotten me into some trouble throughout my life. I just am so hell bent on proving that I don't need help, that I can do things myself and that I am self-reliant. It isn't working for me like I planned. This blog is for him, so he knows how special he is and how much I care about him. I came alive when we got together... I began to open up and want to be a better person. Not just for him but for myself. I can't say that it is easy, because it isn't.. But, it is definitely worth it and I hope he realizes that everyday. That he has my heart and doesn't even have to try..
To all of you out there that are feeling the relationship blues... Hang tough! Be strong and work things out! I know it isn't easy but it is worth it.. Si se puede comes to mind.. It means Yes, you can! And we all can with a little initiative and help from the good Lord.
I hope all of my readers are in good health and enjoying this Valentine's week. I know I will be.
Love to all,
~Michelle~
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